The first post.

Brittany and I touring congress!

This past week I was blessed enough to see an old friend, Brittany. Recently I was feeling a little down, I know that my friendships are always cut short by my consistency on being inconsistent. I'm basically living life as a gypsy. Constantly moving, constantly changing my surroundings. Whether these moves/changes be voluntary or not, I am always so excited to venture to a new area of life and explore what I have yet to see. Brittany has been an important part of this, whether she knows it or not. Brittany and I met our freshman year of college, we were placed in the same "first teams" because our birthdays are one day apart (mine May 7th, hers May 8th). 

The first picture we ever took together, our first week of college.

Brittany and I used to be polar opposites which I think added to the reason why we became friends. She used to be very shy while I, on the other hand, am anything but shy. We instantly clicked and spent all of our time together, we even had 3 out of 5 classes together. By second semester- we had moved in together in the dorms and we were best friends. We literally did everything together. So when I found out I wasn't going to be returning to our school for sophomore year-- it hurt. I'm used to leave people and moving on but Brittany was my family away from family and that felt different. I did my best to visit her and she did to me. 

Visiting her during Fall Break

We were able to stay best friends and it felt refreshing. Less like my normal friendships that tend to fade. A year later, I decided to move to Sitka, Alaska, where she is from, to spend the summer with her. With her help, I was able to get a job there and spend 3 months and some change there. Alaska was an amazing experience that I will never regret. It was extremely hard to be there and be away from my family and boyfriend, I was lucky enough to have my best friend. I felt completely out of my element but I enjoyed being able to be roommates one last time with Brittany.

Britt and I on the boat sailing <3

Summer was amazing. It was so great being able to be in a COMPLETELY new environment that didn't even feel like America, to be honest! But by the end of it-- we were both ready to be out of each others hair. I went off to my new school and she went to begin Junior year back at her school. That was the last I saw her. One second, we were best friends, the next we were so wrapped up in our own lives to get a sec to catch up. Unfortunately, this happens all the time to everyone. When one person moves away, friendships are nearly impossible to grasp. She is still my friend--always will be-- and of course, she will always be my "Roomie". Being able to meet her in PA and spend a day in DC was so refreshing. 

Britt and I spending 4th of July in Sitka being SOAKED by the rain & firemen.

So back to the reason for this post: I was recently complaining to a friend about how much I felt betrayed by everyone at my old school for forgetting about me as a friend. How I felt that they didn't even care about anything I was doing. I was even more hurt that no matter how hard I tried I was only their friend when they wanted me to be (I'm not talking about Britt, fyi). Being able to see Brittany on Wednesday made me realize that the people who want to be your friends and show you that, really are the only ones that should be able to hurt you. I can't control how I feel but I can control my thoughts about it. I'm sick of dwelling on friends that were really never my friends. So, here's how I'm going to live out my senior year, those who's actions show me that they want to be my friend, that's who I need to spend my time with. I am so lucky and blessed to have met friends like Brittany who have meant so much to me to miss so much and have all these memories with. I can't wait to see what friendships will bring this year.

"How lucky am I? To have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." -Pooh