Migraines & Rainy Days

This song has not left my playlist in days. JoJo can't do anything wrong.

I was suppose to go for a walk today with one of my friends but I woke up feeling like crap. I really should try and go to bed earlier but its so hard (or am I stubborn?). To adjust my mood the rain has begun and I'm looking forward to a night of TV, movies, books, music and cuddling. Oh, and from what I can smell from my room...apparently a delicious dinner! I have always loved the smell of rain-- I don't know what it is. I think the only thing I don't like about the rain is when my jeans get wet and my hair turns into a poodle. But--other then that-- I adore it. I love seeing everything outside become clean and fresh, releasing the heat for a moment. I remember when I was younger I always would stare at the rain for hours on end. I think that Georgia had the best rain. When it rained there, it didn't relent. I would sit outside and just the SMELL there would be hypnotizing. In Alaska the rain was every day but it was a rain forest so it was expected. It just became part of life. In Florida the rain never lasted more than a half hour which was a blessing and a curse. In Virginia Beach the rain was perfect. You can smell the ocean with it and more times than not the sun will shine through it. 

And now here, in Maryland, the rain is heavy. Where I live you can see the rain build up over time and then it falls as if its breaking through the sky. It's so wonderful if you think about it. God has really worked hard on this earth! The different types of rain-- such a small detail but one that is so nice to experience. It has given me many happy days. Sounds strange, I guess, to say rain brings happy days. I'm the kind of person who thrives on stress and scheduling. Rain is so unexpected (at least for me because I don't check the weather) and it always relaxes me. I can be in the middle of a stressed day then the rain will come and immediately relax me and cause me to deviate from my schedule and take a moment to breathe. 

How refreshing! Such a blessing that God has given me. 

 

Happy Memorial Day!

Some of my favorite things:

I'm currently on the second book in this series. While it's definitely deviating from my normal reads.. I love that it keeps me wondering! I never know what to expect because Mr. Grey is just so mysterious! 

 Obsessing over this song like no ones business. Normally I don't like Katy Perry... I don't know what it is about her voice. I will listen to her if it's on the radio but I never go out of my way to listen to her. This song, however, is CONSTANTLY being played! I always put it on youtube on my phone and plug it into my car!

Disco Fries. Which I know seems really strange and out there and it is. I've only had them once, a few weeks ago, and I have been craving them ever since. Anyone know how to make them? Without totally messing it up! I feel like there's a fine line between YUM and EW with this type of food!

This hair color reminds me how bad I need to dye my hair again. I am ready for the red to come back!

Planning on doing my nails this way this week, how adorable!

In love with this whole look. How classic and charming. I'm a huge fan of pink and white together, I mostly own those colors. Her hair is complimenting the outfit so perfectly I can't handle it! 

Love this <3 

Wedding Season

I'm going to a wedding in a couple weeks and I'm thinking of wearing something like this:

From Deb

This hopefully coral headband from Etsy 

(if anyone can find one that is more coral colored, similar to the dress, let me know in the comments!)

These shoes from Charlotte Russe

Finally, probably this cardigan because it just wouldn't be me without a cardigan. 

From Forever 21

Thoughts? I am in love with the color coral this summer and I am trying to integrate more brown into my closet. The wedding is in Cape Cod, Massachusetts so I think the lace and flowers will feel right with the beach near by and the summer heat. I've only been to a couple weddings before and I always feel that the clothing a guest wears to the wedding depends on the wedding. For instance, last year the wedding I attended was very formal and so I wore a silk-ish dress. Years ago, a wedding I attended a very informal wedding and basically wore a dress I would wear in the summer. 

I feel like this wedding is a mix between the two! I am excited none the less. It will be my first time in Cape Cod!! 

The first post.

Brittany and I touring congress!

This past week I was blessed enough to see an old friend, Brittany. Recently I was feeling a little down, I know that my friendships are always cut short by my consistency on being inconsistent. I'm basically living life as a gypsy. Constantly moving, constantly changing my surroundings. Whether these moves/changes be voluntary or not, I am always so excited to venture to a new area of life and explore what I have yet to see. Brittany has been an important part of this, whether she knows it or not. Brittany and I met our freshman year of college, we were placed in the same "first teams" because our birthdays are one day apart (mine May 7th, hers May 8th). 

The first picture we ever took together, our first week of college.

Brittany and I used to be polar opposites which I think added to the reason why we became friends. She used to be very shy while I, on the other hand, am anything but shy. We instantly clicked and spent all of our time together, we even had 3 out of 5 classes together. By second semester- we had moved in together in the dorms and we were best friends. We literally did everything together. So when I found out I wasn't going to be returning to our school for sophomore year-- it hurt. I'm used to leave people and moving on but Brittany was my family away from family and that felt different. I did my best to visit her and she did to me. 

Visiting her during Fall Break

We were able to stay best friends and it felt refreshing. Less like my normal friendships that tend to fade. A year later, I decided to move to Sitka, Alaska, where she is from, to spend the summer with her. With her help, I was able to get a job there and spend 3 months and some change there. Alaska was an amazing experience that I will never regret. It was extremely hard to be there and be away from my family and boyfriend, I was lucky enough to have my best friend. I felt completely out of my element but I enjoyed being able to be roommates one last time with Brittany.

Britt and I on the boat sailing <3

Summer was amazing. It was so great being able to be in a COMPLETELY new environment that didn't even feel like America, to be honest! But by the end of it-- we were both ready to be out of each others hair. I went off to my new school and she went to begin Junior year back at her school. That was the last I saw her. One second, we were best friends, the next we were so wrapped up in our own lives to get a sec to catch up. Unfortunately, this happens all the time to everyone. When one person moves away, friendships are nearly impossible to grasp. She is still my friend--always will be-- and of course, she will always be my "Roomie". Being able to meet her in PA and spend a day in DC was so refreshing. 

Britt and I spending 4th of July in Sitka being SOAKED by the rain & firemen.

So back to the reason for this post: I was recently complaining to a friend about how much I felt betrayed by everyone at my old school for forgetting about me as a friend. How I felt that they didn't even care about anything I was doing. I was even more hurt that no matter how hard I tried I was only their friend when they wanted me to be (I'm not talking about Britt, fyi). Being able to see Brittany on Wednesday made me realize that the people who want to be your friends and show you that, really are the only ones that should be able to hurt you. I can't control how I feel but I can control my thoughts about it. I'm sick of dwelling on friends that were really never my friends. So, here's how I'm going to live out my senior year, those who's actions show me that they want to be my friend, that's who I need to spend my time with. I am so lucky and blessed to have met friends like Brittany who have meant so much to me to miss so much and have all these memories with. I can't wait to see what friendships will bring this year.

"How lucky am I? To have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." -Pooh